4.30 AM. The clock said. There was a strange feeling, as though I had never experienced a 4.30 AM before. I looked at the clock again. Then, at the darkness outside. I am lying. I could not see outside. The curtains were drawn. I assumed darkness. 4.30 AM must mean darkness. We can see darkness. Yet, we never notice light, real light.
4.30 AM. It was settling in – the moment, the ambience, the state of being. Does 4.30 AM suffer from pangs? Does it crave water or does it crave thirst? I fumbled looking for the glass of water on my bedside table. It has a telephone, a remote, a little box with cloves and cardamoms to chew on, a small packet of tissues and a glass of water. I knew something would fall and it did. I don’t know what it was, but it wasn’t water. Water does not fall down with a thud.
4.30 AM. I think it fell, the moment, the time, the way it was poised on the clock. Could I not look at it? I did not want to. It had registered so sharply that I was denying its departure. Dawn seemed to have appeared, the curtain changed colour, fresh morning sounds could be heard.
4.30 AM. I did not care that it left me. What leaves you goes; what you do not leave stays.
7 comments:
I read it three times but did not understand!!Why is 4.30 am important??
Probably because FV woke up when the clock was showing 4:30, as opposed to say 4:47 :-)
KB, Al:
4.30 AM is important because it seemed important. It is about the perception of a moment. I called it wayward thoughts...not gospel truth!
FV, was just being facetious re: the 4:47 but I also think that if the clock had shown a different time, that time would have been the title of your musing rather than 4:30. Am I wrong about that? Any case, no offense intended.
I am sitting in darkness, no power for the past one hour. Wonder whether it is in all of Mumbai. Battery will die down after a while...
Al:
It is 9.51 PM...now what will you do about it?! Of course, I know you meant no offence.
FV: "I am sitting in darkness, no power for the past one hour. Wonder whether it is in all of Mumbai. Battery will die down after a while..."
:-( I forgot the rotating power blackouts and shortages in our not-so-fair land.
Listen, my land is sinfully dark, okay? Power back, so is power-packed performance. Nothing that two scoops of chikoo icecream cannot fix!
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